See i knew it. Never be too happy about something. Thought it was going to be another best bud hangout, in the end?

But its ok, i understand that he have to work, anyway he is gonna treat us the next time we meet. HAHAHA!

And why of all people, i have to meet that fuckin MEMElia on the LRT?
I took the wrong LRT and was pretty fucked up already. I was just looking out the train , trying to sort out the stuff in my brain. And then i heard some people talking about Luo Zhi Xiang, though i despise people with bad music taste but i just didnt give a fuck. And den i sat on an empty seat because i was freaking tired. And den i felt somebody staring at me. I thought she looked somewhat familiar but i was too tired to give a fuck.

She was talking on the phone and guess what she said? She was telling her friend that i didnt dare to do anything to her because I am alone.

Like WTF?!?

Did i give a fuck about her last time?
No.
But she just gave me a reason to DO SOMETHING to her.
She asked for it. Nobody messes with me.


Retarded bitch, who viewed my profile first?
Who kept staring at me and my friend at coffeebean first?
Who kept staring at me when i was with my guy at Kovan?
Who went to stalk my friend when he was working?

Mess with you? Oh fuck, Im not worthy!
Haha, u fucking big joke, do you think that staring at me and my clique will make you better looking?

Nuh-uh!

Oh i feel so sad for you that u cant see Luo Zhi Xiang when he comes to SG, but i bet he wun even give a fuck about u, pathetic slut!

Oops, i forgot, slut isnt a way to describe you, because nobody will ever wanna fuck u, HAHAHA!

Fuckin fat ass, u better watch out in school.
And so what that you are a councillor? Better cherish the rest of ur school term because im gonna make ur life fuckin miserable.
Dun let me see you in school!
Somebody warn her, quick!


and let me tell an exclusive secret, pls dun tell anybody ya?

MY FRIEND IS NEVER GONNA LIKE U! LOL!

Situations are tense all the time. I missed my previous house. I never really regard it as a home but I still miss it. I feel very misunderstood and less privileged.. Has things changed? Or maybe it was the same all along. Maybe all the while ive been deceiving myself.


That’s the reason why I never trust people. Because the more I trust them, the more they will end up hurting me. Especially those whom I thought that they were suppose to love me.. and they didn’t.. or the way they did things, it shows that they never gave a damn. Im sensitive. It hurts my feelings.


Im really trapped inside. I keep trying to hold on to what is really mine. Or maybe its just temporary. So I have to be prepared to get hurt. Optimism is just an imagination, its like a therapy people use to deceive themselves. At least it is, in my dictionary.


I cant wait to go to the LP concert. It’s the only way to vent all my resentments. I still remember those days when I used to locked myself in a room and blast their music all day.

I was just a fucked up kid. And I still am.

Some good songs always have a hidden agenda no matter how much the authorities wanna censor them, and most dumb people will never understand.

Ask me why i love rap music again.


David Banner: Speaker

Tool On Deck,
Why Would I Lie?
Nigga You A Pussy
Hope You Got 9 Lives.


I Could Hit A Nigga Wit The 9.-9 Times
Country Ass Boy, Country Like Leanne Rimes
Mississippi D-Banner
Everybody Got Tools
So You Will Need A Hammer

Im A Pill Poppin Animal
Syrup Sipping Nigga
Im So High You Couldn't Reach Me Wit A F**king Antenna
Your F**king Wit This Man
You Can Be This Man Dinner
The Rapper Is Insane
Flowing Like A Mad River
Make Your Ass Quiver
Like You Naked At Winter
Hollygrove Honcho
Hard Time Giver
Im A Shark In The Water
You Just Long John Silver

I Got A Girl
You Want To Meet Her
Her Name Is 9 Millimeter

If I Got 9 Slugs, 9 Bullets Gon Fly
If I Got A Red Beam, 9 People Gon Die

9 Momma's Gon Cry, 9 Spirits In The Sky
9 Preachers Preachin, 9 Sermons Tellin 9 Lies

Cause Each And Every One Of Yall 9 Nigga's Wasn't Shit
I Would Of Rather Kept The 9 Lugers In The Ruger Clips
The Index Finga Slip I Let The 9 Spit
I Lick Em All Like 18 Tits On 9 Chicks
Im A Suicide Risk, 9 Slits On Each Wrist
If I Died 9 Times, The Next Go Arounds A Bitch
And If I Come Back I Throw 99 Souls
And Shove 9 Inches Of Dick In 99 Hoes Yall

Ima West Coast Original, Black John Wayne
Im Too Slick To Slide,
Never Snitch I Let It Ride
I Set Aside,
All My Feelins When Im Killin,
Like A Villian
Move Quick Like A Cheetah, Imma Killa
I Aint Here To Lock Up,
I Flash The Heata And Then Lock Ya Whole Block Up
Niggas Always Actin Hard,
I Keep A 9 Mm In My Waist And Got Two More In The Car
Yeah You All Bout To Get So Quit It,Tryin To Conseal It
You F**k Around And Make Me Reveal It So Kill It Skillet


I Got A 9 Mm
Ready To Go Off Any Minute
So You Feel It
Because Of A Law I Had To Conseal It
If You F**k Around You Gon Make Me Reveal It...

UH huh!

Another hypocritical attempt BITES THE DUST.

Recently i just got this friendster message from Lixia.

Lixia wants to brighten your day with a smile. Check out Lixia's profile and send a reply.
A message from Lixia: hey sis how life?


Well, its all good, nice and sweet. But you know what's the problem?
She didnt even bother to say hi to me in Enyouth. When i tried to smile and talk to her, she just looked awkward and talks to others instead.


Now what? Sis? Who is your fucking sister?

Why do i make such a big fuss when people try to be friendly?
Well, im not trying to show that ive attitude or smth here, but hey, Lixia, your messing with the wrong person.

What pisses me off is that some people dun even noe me and wanna assume that im fuckin stupid.

Do i seem like a naive person to you?


Do i seem like a sweet, simple and innocent little girl who thinks that the world is BE-AUtiful with rainbows, stars and pinkish things and that everybody wants to be my friend because im ooohh-so-lovable~?


Well, get the fuck out of my life. I dun deny the fact that everybody is a hypocrite (including myself) but i think it is pretty ridiculous to get smth from me this way. (but other ways wont work anyway.)


Everybody tell me that it is a must to suck up to people in this society. But i would rather people to suck my dick and maybe i might consider getting "used" by them.


But i probably wont have a sex transplant anytime soon.
So dismiss the idea yeah? =)

Hmm.. felt so shitty just now.
Thank God Sheng yuan disturbed me at the right time.
Friends are SOOOOOO important to me.


I Love Sheng Yuan!
I Luuurve Soppy~!
I luuuuuuuurve Fatim!
I love Dennis!!!!
I love Shan an!
I love Sebastian!!
I love Chao ah ma!
I love MY Valerie!!! ( Not his fuckin ex.)
I love Derek cuz ur an asshole!!!
I love wEwes! (One at each time.)
I love Teddy!!! (u noe who u are.)


and Naq too. Thanks for cheering me up, i haven noe u enough to love you yet, but soon!
Hehe!


Im sorry boyfriend.
ive disappointed u, havent i?
Sometimes i really wish to be sugar, spice, and everything nice.
But no, im never like that. Makes me feel stupid.

AND one day im gonna make sure i'll let those people who LOOK DOWN on me regret and swallow all those SHIT that they say!


Dun believe in me?
FUCK U!


I CAN do whatever i want and i'll make sure i'll succeed.
Nobody is gonna bring me down.

NOBODY.




I WILL NOT LOSE.