Ive come to realise that Work life is just like a relationship. Just when you heave a sigh of relief that you finally found a job, that is ONLY the beginning.


And the people who are the nicest to you can be the worst enemy behind that cheery facade.

Tongues will wag because that's what empty vessels are best at doing, and some people just do things like everything revolves in their own world, and most experts just forgot those times when they were a rookie.



WELCOME TO THE WORKING WORLD, Yuting.
(And like what they always say, "Suck it up!")

Flip a new page.



Changed a new blogskin, had a new hairstyle.


A new life, a new beginning.



Sometimes i get paranoid and asked myself, "Will it be different this time?" I find it hard to trust again.


But the more i see you, the more i feel for you, the more you make me wanna break down these walls to trust and to give you the best that i can. I wanna put in effort, because i think that you are worth it. You are worth the wait, you are worth it for me to stay faithful.



So love, you gotta accept my past just like ive accepted yours.



And you always say it best, when you say nothing at all.


I LOVE YOU, Dwayne. =)

In such a short period of time, many things have changed. Ive found someone who is everything that i am looking for, physically and emotionally, its too good to be true, sometimes i find it hard to believe too.



I believe everyone has bad past relationships to learn from. We are not perfect, people make mistakes, it is alright as long as you learn from it, move on and never look back.




I had another hamster nightmare again, its kinda haunting, ive no idea why. This time, there are 2 hamsters on different sides, they were starving as i forgot to feed them mealworms. When i put the mealworms in front of them, it seems like it was too late.



Aargh. Maybe subconsciously, there are some things in my mind that i cant let go. Those memories are kinda haunting. But it takes time eh, if i dont save myself now nobody is going to help me in the future. I dont want to ruin my own happiness.





Work as a ok, the system is kinda complicating and the cash amount is kinda intimidating, but i will be "familiarise" with it soon.




Sop went NS on monday, freaking miss him. And he still got the time to msg me during lights out. Haha. I wonder how he can survive without his ipod. I know how it feels man, it must be so hard on him.
Hope he'll come out as a more mature person, and slimmer (HOPEFULLY!) HAHAHA.



Cya next post! =)

I remember when you use to take me on a
Bike ride everyday on the bayou (You remember that? We were inseparable)


And I remember when you could do no wrong
You'd come home from work and I jumped in your arms when I saw you
I was so happy to see you



I still remember the expression on your face
When you found out I'd been on a date and had a boyfriend (My first boyfriend, you should have seen your face)



Words can't express my boundless gratitude for you
I appreciate what you do



Because you loved me I overcome
And I'm so proud of what you've become
You've given me such security
No matter what mistakes I know you're there for me
You cure my disappointments and you heal my pain
You understood my fears and you protected me
Treasure every irreplaceable memory and that's why...



I want my son to be like my daddy
I want my husband to be like my daddy
There is no one else like my daddy
And I thank you for loving me



Even if my man broke my heart today
No matter how much pain I'm in I will be okay
Cause I got a man in my life that can't be replaced
For this love is unconditional it won't go away



I know I'm lucky
Know it ain't easy
For men who take care of their responsibilities


Love is overwhelming
Lord why did you pick me
Can't stop my tears from falling
I love you so much daddy



I get so emotional daddy, every time I think of you
I get so emotional daddy, every time I think of you
There is no one else like my daddy
No one else replace my daddy...

You make me merry made me very very happy. =)


I still cant believe this is happening. If it is a dream then i rather not wake up.

I love to sleep, i just hate that one hour before i really doze off, cuz my brain will keep thinkin bout those things that i dont want to think about, and then i will cry again.


Hate myself for that, so fuckin weak.



I just cant help but to dial his number. So stupid of me. Right now he is probably smsing girls from friendster, facebook, adult friendfinder, or whoever that has got a vagina in his phonebook.



FUCK THAT FEELING.



But even if he comes back, it will still be the same ol' thing again. Pray that i will forget bout it soon..



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By now, those who know me should know that my dream guy is Dwayne Johnson. And recently i met MINE! Gosh.. even if we dont end up together it is perfectly fine, cuz anyone would kill to just hang out with their Dwayne Johnson-s. HAHAHA.



I watched Kung Fu Panda with Dwayne today, it is really funny~


Ive learnt something valuable from the movie, and i believe that everyone (especially myself) need to know:




" The Past is History, the Future is a Mystery, but the TODAY is a gift, that is why it is called the PRESENT." - Master Wu Gui




MEANINGFUL RIGHHHHTTT!?!

I always thought that i am magnanimous to all my past relationships, i thought since both of us know each other so well thou we couldnt be together, we should really stay as friends.



But apparently i was wrong. 1 of them kept avoiding me, and another, well, he said he loved me but just after we break up, he couldnt even be bothered bout my life!




Kinda ironic really. But thats not the point.



There is this one person whom i can never have a platonic friendship with. It is either i screw up his life, he screws up my life, or we will be busy being obsessed with each other.



But this has got to stop. It is really unhealthy. Sometimes i really feel that we shouldnt have met at all. It is such a huge mess.






Been going out on dates and meeting new people, though nothing is certain, i am pretty much contented with my single life, go for company trainings with my beloved new friend Chermaine..



..and at home, i will make love to the computer, watch sex and the city, or do some housework.. thou it sounds monotonous, it is better than having a crazy affair that gets me upset all the time, thinking bout ugly stuff like revenge, jealousy and bla bla bla.




And i know i can always count on my best friends to be there!



Best bud hangout (minus fatim) this Saturday!

Sex and the City Day with BFF this Sunday!




There are so many things that i want to talk to u about~! HEHE!




Oh ya! There's a song i want to share today.. its the first song i wanna hear every morning.. please listen, its soooooo good, im addicted to it! (At least for now)







Cheers! =)