Haha. Now both PeiYun and Peishi has got boyfriends le.
And maybe its time for me to be single?!?

Have been contemplating bout it for quite some time.
Do i really have a future with him?
Does he really love me?
Does he even care?

Im still not so sure about the answer.
It makes no difference whether he is in camp or not.
If he goes to camp, at least i can lie to myself that he is missing me in the camp.

But then again, will i?
Ive lost faith.
I ask God, should i change things for the better?
Or should i just quit?

Quitters never win, no doubt my heart will hurt, i know it takes time to get over it.
But perhaps i might feel better after i get over this?
And i will never have to cry myself to sleep at nite?

My heart is telling me- no, no, no
My brain is telling me- go, go, go.

Someone please show me the light.


It makes me so mad
that i make u seem so bad
Even though u dun care
if i ever came back
I dont wanna fuss over things,
and i dun wanna cuss u names,
Please God, please God
Please let it rain,
dun let him see the tears,
dun let him see the pain.

Just returned home from work. EXHILARATING!!!!!

Ive been working as a new feel promoter for 2 days. Ystd, i am an angel with yellow wings giving ladies free rides to celebrate International Women's Day. I was having mild asthma attacks on the bus but thank God for being my fortress. Thank God for His grace, without Him i wouldnt be able to make it.

Today i was the only angel, a bit freaky as my costume was the oddest at the Fairprice AMK hub opening. But it was fun, though. Just hope that i will recieve the pay. Plus ive got a free ride home for boss. He wants me to take part in another new project involving the MayDay Concert, the company is one of the sponsors for many artiste like Rain and S.H.E, gaining much publicity. I dun mind working for them as long as the pay is good.

Hehe.. Suddenly it feels so good to be 18. Woo hoo~

Teddy Baby called today. His rashes has gotten worse and he sounded so sick. Very worried about him. I pray to God that he will be fine. Realli miss him a lot.

Its been 2 and a half days since i checked into Independent Rehabilitation Center.

Gawd, i terribly miss him.
Im suffering from mild withdrawal symptoms but im trying to deal it with a positive mindset.

It makes me more clear headed though. Being in a long term relationship, ive become very dependent on him. And my priorities are all messed up.

Everytime he leaves for camp its like clearing all the unhappiness, insecurities and all those shitty things outta our relationship. A good way to detox. =)

Prayed for the earthquake victims in Sumatra.

Everything is God's plan. I know it is easy to say that when im not in the situation but im praying for more salvation. We do not have eternal death but will instead rejoice on the day that we meet our Lord and savior.