Mr 8 Packs is a hopeless romantic.

And Yuting is a hopeless love fool.

But she will never let him know.





=)

Went to AX7 concert last nite, so tired. i'll let the pictures do the talking..





Those uncivilised mosh-ers. They were singing Majulah Singapura before the concert, in front of the reporters somemore. Me and mentor could have died of embarassment. Some got drunk and wasted before the concert.


And and and, HOW ON EARTH can you wear a Trivium/Rolling Stones/ Slayer shirt to an AVENGED SEVENFOLD concert? I love the other bands too but at least you should know what you are wearing. Stupid people. So insulting.





Mentor!!!




Yasmine the lucky bitch who got a free ticket, thanks to (Clears throat) ME! HEHE











To be honest this concert wasnt as good as what i had expected. Firstly, the crowd pisses me off. They were like freaking smoking inside when it is already suffocating enough. But i can understand their need to mosh.. Once they start me and Yas quickly make our way to the back. Not really worth it to get hurt, you should see how insane they were.


And this fat chick and her boyfriend were right in front of us lovey and dovey and shit. It was so Visually tormenting. Really distracting. They were behaving like they are goin to make love with the music. Eh seriously just FUCK OFF la.



Second, the Organisers should at least project the performance on the screen at the sides, no? We cant even see a fuckin thing (just a glimpse when i jumped), only can hear the background music, whats the point sia.



Linkin Park was much more organised. They even have lockers to put our stuffs but last nite i have to carry my big bag and jumped around ( Dont ask me, I NEED TO BRING THEM for the sake of work)


But i just put the tote bag around my neck and jumped like a crazy woman. In the end the tote bag got so damaged it became a sling bag. LOL.


It was then that i realised i wasnt as hardcore about them as i used to. That was only a phase as i was going thru, so i didnt really feel those songs (if you know what i mean). But my favourite song of the night was "Almost Easy", everybody was screaming, "I'm not insane, im not insane.."



Haha. That was the best part. And "Seize the day" kinda reminded me of Jackson.. (SHITT!)

But its good thou. You need a little emoing to get high.


For those of you missed the concert, dont worry, they promised to come back again. But i dont think i'll be going the next time. Thou M Shadows was HOT HOT HOT!


You should have seen those arms.. AND THOSE MOTHERFUCKING TATTOOS!!!!


DROOLLLLSS! Haha.


I'll give the concert 6 outta 10.

Motley Crue would have been so much better thou. =(








OMG M. SHADOWS. The new man of my dreams. He look wayyyy cooler in person. SERIOUS!!!


Okie gtg. Before i go goo goo ga ga over him and write another 10 pages.


Ciaos~

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings.



Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again..



But it don't really matter,
When life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger.



And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me.



There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should have taken.


Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend.



But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.



And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me.



I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.


And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone.
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.

Why Chapter 2 is my favourite Hair salon:

1) I have my stylist on speed dial.
2) They remember my birthday.
3) They've got the rebate card (For the Auntie in me)
4) They always suggest new ideas to change how i look, which is great.
5) Eh.. i dunno let me think first.


Jeft (my hairstylist) gets pissed off whenever my fringe grows. And i made it worse by cutting it myself. But somehow i still want to have a side parting. I dont know. Personally i think long side partings are classy.

But somehow or rather it WAS not on me:






So i went back for trimming and treatment last saturday. Jeft cut bangs for me (AGAIN!) but i dunoo. The expert knows best, no?

After that i kinda dreaded those bangs. Gavin says i looked like sailormoon (damnit) and i think it makes my chubby face extra chubby.







Eh but then i tied my hair today and this hairstyle reminds me of Fergie in my humps.

So yea, now im starting to embrace it. Heh heh.


Work is damn stressed these days. A few times i felt like breaking down. And the situation at home aint getting any better. And the weather made me sick too. Somehow i felt like this is (still) one of the worse periods of my life (yet). But i have to look at it on the bright side.


Oh well. Talk about something happy. Tmr's Yasmine's bdae. Haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!


This video is dedicated to yoooou.





Hope you can look forward to a happier future, and you really should. Because you deserve it! =)

Im fuckin pissed. With my fuckin life.


I hate to stay at home. Other people will never understand why. They think i am being childish and all that shit. But it is safer outside than to stay at home. Those hurling insults are too much for me to bear. Its killing my fuckin brain. I feel so much restrictions like a bird trapped in a cage.


Its seriously fuckin ridiculous. The computer is fucking set with a password. Everytime i need to log on, i have to ask for her permission, which is like asking her for money (except for the fact that it is ten times worse if i were to really do that).


And once i have successfully log on into my computer, i can only use for 1 hour.

Yes ONE HOUR which is 60 minutes.


ONE FUCKING HOUR to charge my ipod, dl my songs, friendstering, msn for awhile and quickly blog. Like what the fuck is this?


I AM FUCKING 20.


And another reason why i hate to stay at home, because i dont want to be affected in any ways by her selfishness. She bears grudges (yes, ESPECIALLY with her own family). Money to her is like a big big thing. She is calculative EVEN TO HER OWN FAMILY, even if it is 10 cents or 20 cents. How fuckin ridiculous is that?


And if you pissed her off, haha GOOD LUCK TO YOU! That means 1 MONTH of washing your own clothes, your own dishes, basically everything. Oh and did i mention, NO COMPUTER FOR U! HAHAHAHA!



I feel so much resentments. I just want to go home to a warm and happy family. Which is not the case. Her narrow-mindedness ruins this whole family.



Well, you can say that i am like her. That is what i am ashamed of. Being a product of a selfish bitch. Ive got so much teenage angst in me. Why? Because ive been treated like a fucking kid. 20 years old and still feeling fuckin trapped.



Im getting used to this kinda shitty lifestyle. I get shit at work, which i dont mind cuz that is what i am getting paid for, men are all with fucking agendas, i despise them all, i wish they will all just FUCK OFF, and those jerks who think that i cant live wout them, no, its not true at all. I AM ONLY USING YOU just like YOU ARE USING ME. ITS YOUR OWN FUCKING LOSS ANYWAY. I never really love you, who in their sane mind will? Damn motherfucker who cant even get an erection. NBCB. Go and try fucking with your oh so perfect fat chick. You deserve each other.



And that MOTHERFUCKING SAM, stop bugging me. You pathetic son of a bitch. Get a fucking life. And oh, i will never wear Sarah's old shoes, why? No, not because she is "friend" but yikes! Think about it! I am too fly for this shit, i cant even be bothered to explain why. Haha. Such poor taste in boyfriends, TSK TSK. BUT SUITS HER ANYWAY.



The only thing i can put my hopes into are friends.. but they have got their own lives.

I am so sick of my fucking life.
Failure is not an option. Success is the best revenge.





I did my time, and I want out
So effusive
Fade
It doesn't cut,
The soul is not so vibrant


The reckoning, the sickening
Packaging subversion
Pseudo-sacrosanct perversion


Go drill your deserts,
Go dig your graves
Then fill your mouth
With all the money you will save
Sinking in, getting smaller again
Im done, it has begun
I'm not the only one



Oh, there are cracks, in the road we laid
But where the temple fell,
The secrets have gone mad
This is nothing new,
But when we kill it all,
The hate was all we had!


Who needs another mess?
We could start over!
Just look me in the eyes
And say I'm wrong
Now there's only emptiness...
Venomous, insipid!
I think we're done
I'm not the only one!


And the rain will kill us all,
We throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

If the elephants have past lives, yet are destined to always remember,
it's no wonder how they scream,
like you and I, they must have some temper.



And I am dreaming of them on the plains, dirtying up their beds,
watching for some kind of rain to cool their hot heads.
And how dare that you send me that card when I'm doing all that I can do.
You are forcing me to remember when all I want is to just forget you.
If the tiger shall protect her young, then tell me how did you slip by.
All my instincts have failed me for once -- I must have somehow slept the whole night.




And I am dreaming of them with their kill, tearing it all apart,
blood dripping from their lips, and teeth sinking in too hard.
And how dare that you say you will call, when you know I need some peace of mind..
If you had to take sides with the animals, won't you do it with one who is kind?



If the hawks in the trees need the dead, if you're living you don't stand a chance.
You can lie there and say you are fed, but there are only two ends to this dance.
You can flee with your wounds just in time, or lie there as he feeds,
watching yourself ripped to shreds and laughing as you bleed.



So for those of you falling in love, keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right.

Throw yourself in the midst of danger, but keep one eye open at night.




- Rachael Yamagata "Elephants"





Wow. Just wow.

Went East coast for the supposedly cycling trip. But we were feeling kinda lazy, so after awhile, we went the Muddy Murphy's for drinking.


We drank. Then we talked. Bout some life shit and stuff.


Then after awhile, i started to whine about how shitty my life is.


Suddenly Heineken taste so refreshing.


And then i complain. Then i got defensive.


Then i became sarcastic.


And then i just suddenly broke down. I poured my heart out to the people whom i never really talked about those stuff with. I mean, usually there will be a bunch of friends to have fun with, some friends to talk about your problems with.. but yesterday i didnt care if i were to make a fool outta myself (which im glad that i didnt)


But i am so glad i let it all out. Like finally. After yesterday i felt so much better already.


Its amazing what alchohol can do for you. Haha.



Ciaos.

Home (hōm)
n.

1. A place where one lives; a residence.
2. The physical structure within which one lives, such as a house or apartment.
3. A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household.
4.
1. An environment offering security and happiness.
2. A valued place regarded as a refuge or place of origin.
3. Baseball Home plate.
4. Games Home base.
5. The starting position of the cursor on a text-based computer display, usually in the upper left corner of the screen.
6. A starting position within a computer application, such as the beginning of a line, file, or screen or the top of a chart or list.
5. The place, such as a country or town, where one was born or has lived for a long period.
6. The native habitat, as of a plant or animal.
7. The place where something is discovered, founded, developed, or promoted; a source.
8. A headquarters; a home base.



Yuting's definition: A scented candle, a Ten buck therapy brochere from the Musuem; and the miniature Vodka that i refused to drink (thou very tempted to) cuz it reminds me of a special moment.



Life, how can it more simple and perfect than that?

Saturday



HANGOUT with my beloved and Bitchy Soursop!!!





Went to the new Fish and Co. The ambience's not bad, but the food kinda sucked. They over-grilled my Coriander fish, and when i wanted rice, they gave me chips. Thank god i worked in the customer service industry, if it was me in the past, i would have suck it up and eat whatevers on the table, but that evening i stood up for my rights. haha.



I was hoping they would gave me free dinner (My cash officer succeeded at Waraku), but NO SUCH LUCK.


Ive got a replacement and another free plate of chips though. =)




And we watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona, the movie which i had highly anticipated.


And it didnt disappoint me. I dunno. You have to be a deep thinker to appreciate it.


Its a bit erratic, and kinda twisted. But i see myself in the characters..



Vicky, the sensible girl with the predictable life and a predictable relationship.


Cristina (Scarlett Johansson), the gorgeous but naive woman with deep curiousity to try everything in a relationship,(or a three-some)


And Maria Elena (Penelope Cruz), an impulsive, passionate, mentally unstable woman with an anger problem, and the ex wife of Juan Antonio.




Penelope Cruz is damn hot, hot, hot!!


There's just something about spanish people.. Drools..




SUNDAY

Sometimes you have to take a break from all those Bimbotic shopping. That is why you need friends like Sheron to bring you to Museums, to get in touch with the Artsy Fartsy-ness in me (CHEY~) haha.


The RED DOT museum located at Maxwell, i love that place. Its kinda warm and cosy.. though it is not very big, it is interesting.













This lady is gifted. She has mastered the art of AMBIGRAMS. She can write your name which can be read upside down. Even for different names with the same letter. For example, one side can be MARY, but if you turn it upside down it can be LEON. Amazing right?


She did a sample for my own name =)

And i bought this adorable handmade keychains. And i got one for a special someone since her birthday is coming.
















I am more Audio than Visual. We sat there listen to acoustic guitar playing to Bossa Nova.. so smoothing, me likey~




Okay, this shall be the last time im gonna cut my own bangs, omg, cant wait for it to grow back soon =(







I love the concrete toilets. =)






Cant wait to see her again. She promised to lend me her motley crue cd, claims that she is out of her teenage angst already. Guess im a slow developer. lol.


Ciaos~

I dont know what you are thinking. If there is some problem with your self esteem, i suggest you take your ridiculous comparison elsewhere.


Dont you realise that we have nothing in common? It will kill you inside and also, it disgusts me.


So dont do it.