Cigarettes


If i were to use a thing to describe about love, it would be cigarettes.

People think its farkin cool to have it but it isnt really, and you jolly well know the consequences of being addicted to it.
But still...


Well, why am i worrying about things when everything is still fine now? Im really starting to fall in love with him. Is it the weakest point and the losing end as Shan an says? Is it a must that my heart has to prepare to be hurt again? Should i continue to keep building walls around me?

And then there's the pack of chewing gums which i had left and neglected. I felt so bad, it makes me feel like the most evil person on earth by leaving him. But still, ive no choice. What's done cannot be undone, and what's not meant to be is not something that we both can compromise on.

True, he is a good and decent guy. (Not that i wanna bullshit or to make him feel better if he is reading this) I still do think about the old times when we used to have fun and all the things we did for each other, but i aint gonna change myself to suit him, it's hard. And i wuldnt want him to be somebody he is not.


One day he's gonna find himself a nice simple girl. And no doubt i'll feel a little jealous inside. But that's life for you. Or maybe its just me. Im contradicting.



"Cigarettes" - Fort Minor

They say their safe, wrappers claim they really bang
We dont care if it's true when we lay the money down
We don't believe the words, we just love the way they sound
They're acting like we're idiots, They're lying to our face
Maybe we are idiots, we buy it anyway

Its just like a cigarette, its something that I do
Once in awhile but between me and you
Its just like a cigarette Nobody's really fooled
I dont want the truth, I wanna feel fucking cool

When I breathe that little bit of death supposedly cancer-free and
Everything they say's got the truth twisted up
But twisted up's what I want man, I can't get enough
Cuz even though we know it's all just a big bluff
We just light another up, what
We don't give a fuck