Do you think it was easy for me to get over this breakup? No it is not. But it is the only thing to do. I may appear calm in front of you, i can go out with friends as if nothing has happened, why?!?


Because my tears for you have dried. You think you've suffered a lot these few days, there's nothing compared to what i suffered inside for the past 8 months. You will never know how it feels, when someone you love thinks that he already gave you the best he can, yet he is never contented with you.


Whenever i doubt you and i kicked up a big fuss, i always think that its my fault for being so sensitive, and everytime we patched up and i thought i do you wrong for giving you attitude, just as i thought you were the best boyfriend ever, some cold hard facts just slapped me across the face. Everytime i ask myself, is it because i am not good enough? Why must you do this to me?


Sometimes i cry inside, and you dont know how much it hurts, you think you are so noble, you loved me so much that you cant eat and sleep, and i will go back to you?


NO! This isnt right. Because if i take you back its still gonna be the same. You say it isnt, how do you trust urself when you are never disciplined enough?

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Turning 21 this year, what have you, as a man, accomplished in your life?
How many people IN YOUR LIFE have you actually be COMPLETELY honest with?


What makes a man? Is it money, car, girls, house or a status?


No, all this comes ONLY after you have achieved who you are inside.



You want to talk about rich people? Let me talk about rich people.

Bill Gates is a philanthropist. He married his ONLY wife in 1994. He is named by Times as one of the 100 most influential people in the 21st century.


Why did he need to donate so much money when he can keep it to himself?
You may think that if you are as rich, you would definitely do it, yea bullshit.
You have many 1 dollars yourself, why arent you donating to the buskers everytime you see them?


He is filthy rich, he can spend many incredible dates with many girls, but no, he choose to stay faithful to one. You think its easy? Just ask yourself.


If he is not a man with Character, do you think that he can be one of the most influential? Paris Hilton's grandfather is rich, but he is not under the category.



DONT YOU SEE? Its from the inside out, not from the outside in!!!
You want to be successful, you want to be rich??? But you dont even have the right mindset!

You just like to kid yourself and blame everybody else. Yes, true, you want to study, you want to learn driving, but where is your fucking character? Thrown out of the window!!!


I dont even know why i want to waste my time writing this to convince you to be a better person. Everybody wants to be better. But B-E-T-T-E-R is just a 6 letter word.


I hope in 20 years time, you can look back to your shady past and say, "Thank God, it made me who I am today."



Dont let it haunt you anymore, dont spend your days just covering up your lies. Be a man and face all the shit you have done.

If you have done shit, then you deserve shit, dont lie or cheat or hide hoping that nobody will know. Because even if nobody knows, you wont be able to have a clear conscience and you will never be a Successful man with character.




Change for the sake of yourself, not me.