Another day just comes and goes..

Work life was a okay. I dont dare to say that it is great, but im pretty much contented. Back @ Raffles city and it is good to see those people again.


Today i had to go to FEB building at Cecil street for a Relief pool meeting. Waited for Huinee for a freaking 15 minutes.. but after the previous relationship i realised ive become more patient (i mean, whats 15 minutes when i had waited 2 weeks right? Never mind that all the waiting went down the drain)

So there she was, with another guy in a suit. At first i thought it was her bf, but i remembered she told me her bf was the sporty outdoor (almost Toie) kind, so i figured he wasnt. Turns out it is a Senior Officer who is also from relief pool. He seriously got that doctor look. So 3 of us walked like 10 freakin minutes before we reached the building.



The meeting rooms were labelled funny names, like espresso room, cappucino room bla bla bla.. (i wonder if there is a frappucino room, if there is, im gonna call up my bff and asked him to slack there with me the whole day, hahaha.)


I didnt expect that many people to turn up.. so we did what most adults in the corporate world do, just socialising around.. i took a quick glance around, some auntie looking woman blabbering about shit.. 2 ladies smiling at each other politely, and guys looking smart with their ties and all.. and then there's me and Huinee, 2 noobs there bullshitting. Haha.


And then i found myself chatting up with some of the guys there.. and then i thought to myself, hey, single life is not that bad! It is good to know more people, i still need to broaden my social circle.


And then the meeting starts. It was tad boring. The presenter cant pronounce "L" and somehow i find it kinda amusing. (Yeah, i know, i hate myself for that too.) i tugged on Huinee's ponytail playfully and she turned back and look at me, almost as if she is half asleep. I guess she wasnt really paying attention to what the speaker was saying too.


And then we ended the meeting with doughnuts, muffins and Old Chang Kee.



Yeah thats about all.


No thats not all.



I took a peep at his friendster. His shout out was this: "Should i say you are Extravagant; Fanciful; Whimsical; impudent, Streetwise or just another person who haven't seen the world enough?"



I wonder if he is talking about me. God knows. Maybe im too sensitive.


But seriously, impudent? Am i? Nah, im just straightforward.
Fanciful? Hell yea, i have to admit that.


But its not a crime, aint it? But i dont build sandcastles in the air.


Well, if all these are true, i feel sad that we turn out this way. I dont want to burn bridges. Plus, how much does he know about me? It is because of all these assumptions that we ended up like this. And if that is really what you think about me, i will appreciate you telling me right in front of my face, just dish it out and we can discuss about it.. or argue, whatever, but just dont assume.



But ironically, if its true, it is good too. At least he had feelings (be it resentment), better than him having no feelings for me at all. I seriously feel like toilet paper, like me, get into a relationship with me, tell me you will never hurt me.. and then the feelings fade, just an sms and expect me to fuck off and move on with life?



Sounds too fucking easy. I vowed never to trust any guy again.


Somehow, i still yearn for an answer.. the answer to why this relationship turns out this way. But it doesnt matter, does it? And the truth always hurts.


Aargh.

Somebody save me frm this misery.