Yes, it is quite flattering to have a cousin who looks up to you.

But somehow it is kinda freaking me out.

Never mind that she put my pictures on her friendster.

She added my ex boyfriend (Toie) and put it as her featured friend.



And somehow or another she knows my love life!! Freaky!!
She is telling her mom which tells my mom bout Jin who still has my pictures in his bog, friendster or whatever.. My dad always tells me vague details.


I dont even go to Jin's friendster anymore. Or his blog.


I find all the rumours amusing.


No thats not Joey im talking about, it is a younger cousin. That silly girl.


It is kinda awkward la. My mom's side is kinda screwed up.


And i just remembered, a few months ago, right after a family gathering, my dad gave me a stern look when i came back from work.


He is like , " Ting, you should know what you are doing, Dont anyhow."


Anyhow what?!?


"Your cousin told his mom that he likes you."


Wtf?!? He made it sound like we were having some incestuous relationship?


I only meet this cousin once every few years!



Somehow i find all these rumours kinda amusing.



But i seriously dislike my parents asking me questions that i dont even understand.


And to my little cousin, if you are reading this, just wanna tell you, dont look up to me.


I aint a role model. Im just a normal person. I get hurt in relationships, in fact, my love life is kinda screwed up. I face shit at my workplace sometimes.. my life aint a bed of roses.


But if you still want to know more bout me, its fine. Just dont let ur momma know. Because by letting your momma know means my mommy will also know. And if my mommy knows my daddy will come and ask me questions. And i dont know how to answer his questions you know?


Complicating.

Wake up, Mr. West, Mr. West, Mr. Fresh
Mr. by-his-self-he-so-impressed
I mean, damn, did you even see the test
You got D's mother fucker, D's, Rosie Perez
And yes, barely pass any and every class
Looking at every ass
Cheated on every test
I guess this is my dissertation
Homie, this shit is basic
Welcome to graduation

Good morning
Good morning
Good morning
Good morning

Good morning
On this day we become legendary
Everything we dreamed of
I'm like a fly Malcolm X
Buy any jeans necessary
Detroit wear cleaned up
From the streets of the league
From an eigth to a key
But you graduate when you make it up outta the streets
From the moments of pain
Look how far we done came
Haters saying ya changed
Now ya doing ya thing

Good morning
Look at the valedictorian scared of the future
While I hop in the Delorean
Scared-to-face-the-world complacent career student
Some people graduate, but we still stupid
They tell you read this, eat this, don't look around
Just peep this, preach us, teach us, Jesus
Okay, look up now, they done stole your streetness
After all of that, you receive this

Good morning
Hustlers, that's if you're still living
Get on down
Every time that we hear them
Good morning
Hustlers, that's if you're still living
Get on down
Every time that we hear them
Good morning
Hustlers, that's if you're still living
Get on down
Every time that we hear them
Good morning
Hustlers, that's if you're still living
Get on down

Good Morning~!

yes, this IS the official Kanye West video.. i love it.. i love how he uses education to voice out about how life on the streets is. And the bear looks so cute! I saw his signature "Stronger" glasses at Revoltage. Wonder if anybody will wear them, i mean, you cant even see properly with them right?

Im having a love hate relationship with my ipod, it keeps hanging on me. Tried to reset it but i cant. How do i survive wout music? I have no idea. God can you stop putting me to the test? You are like giving me everything i love and taking them away from me.

Okay, enough of my melodrama.

Another day just comes and goes..

Work life was a okay. I dont dare to say that it is great, but im pretty much contented. Back @ Raffles city and it is good to see those people again.


Today i had to go to FEB building at Cecil street for a Relief pool meeting. Waited for Huinee for a freaking 15 minutes.. but after the previous relationship i realised ive become more patient (i mean, whats 15 minutes when i had waited 2 weeks right? Never mind that all the waiting went down the drain)

So there she was, with another guy in a suit. At first i thought it was her bf, but i remembered she told me her bf was the sporty outdoor (almost Toie) kind, so i figured he wasnt. Turns out it is a Senior Officer who is also from relief pool. He seriously got that doctor look. So 3 of us walked like 10 freakin minutes before we reached the building.



The meeting rooms were labelled funny names, like espresso room, cappucino room bla bla bla.. (i wonder if there is a frappucino room, if there is, im gonna call up my bff and asked him to slack there with me the whole day, hahaha.)


I didnt expect that many people to turn up.. so we did what most adults in the corporate world do, just socialising around.. i took a quick glance around, some auntie looking woman blabbering about shit.. 2 ladies smiling at each other politely, and guys looking smart with their ties and all.. and then there's me and Huinee, 2 noobs there bullshitting. Haha.


And then i found myself chatting up with some of the guys there.. and then i thought to myself, hey, single life is not that bad! It is good to know more people, i still need to broaden my social circle.


And then the meeting starts. It was tad boring. The presenter cant pronounce "L" and somehow i find it kinda amusing. (Yeah, i know, i hate myself for that too.) i tugged on Huinee's ponytail playfully and she turned back and look at me, almost as if she is half asleep. I guess she wasnt really paying attention to what the speaker was saying too.


And then we ended the meeting with doughnuts, muffins and Old Chang Kee.



Yeah thats about all.


No thats not all.



I took a peep at his friendster. His shout out was this: "Should i say you are Extravagant; Fanciful; Whimsical; impudent, Streetwise or just another person who haven't seen the world enough?"



I wonder if he is talking about me. God knows. Maybe im too sensitive.


But seriously, impudent? Am i? Nah, im just straightforward.
Fanciful? Hell yea, i have to admit that.


But its not a crime, aint it? But i dont build sandcastles in the air.


Well, if all these are true, i feel sad that we turn out this way. I dont want to burn bridges. Plus, how much does he know about me? It is because of all these assumptions that we ended up like this. And if that is really what you think about me, i will appreciate you telling me right in front of my face, just dish it out and we can discuss about it.. or argue, whatever, but just dont assume.



But ironically, if its true, it is good too. At least he had feelings (be it resentment), better than him having no feelings for me at all. I seriously feel like toilet paper, like me, get into a relationship with me, tell me you will never hurt me.. and then the feelings fade, just an sms and expect me to fuck off and move on with life?



Sounds too fucking easy. I vowed never to trust any guy again.


Somehow, i still yearn for an answer.. the answer to why this relationship turns out this way. But it doesnt matter, does it? And the truth always hurts.


Aargh.

Somebody save me frm this misery.

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again


I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

That is the exact english translation of the song. It so relates. =(

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This is how my lifestyle is like.
Gawd, i dont remember spending that much money.


My account is kinda dried up right now, i guess Korean lessons have to wait. Salsa lessons have to wait too. No more impulsive shopping sprees.

But but but.. im saving up to go travelling.. Hopefully if everything goes well me and Joey will be going to probably Bali or Thailand, just the 2 of us, exploring the country and take pictures like nobody's business. Im crossing my fingers. I would very much prefer Bali.. Spa and massage.. WOOOOOTs! Lol..

But have to wait till our birthday month which is on November (she is 364 days younger than me)

Im feeling better now.. Joey accompanied me the whole evening.. It is good to feel loved. Yasmine was so damn sweet.. she kept checking if i was alright.. haha..

Haha.. i looked so sad yesterday.But today i manage to smile properly..








If you dont know me you probably think im obese. Man, i need to go lipo my cheeks already.

On my way home, i bumped into Shiwei. I told him i broke up and all that stuff. I bet he is probably thinking, " Haha serve you right, who ask you not to choose me instead."



Hahaha.. nah i think i think too much, he was being very sweet and all. If i chose him i'll probably be the one that will break his heart, but isnt that better than being dumped? haha.. It is like the hunter and the hunted, the predator and the prey..



Bla bla bla, i dunno what im talking about.

I had my weekends all planned out alrdy. Heh heh. Yeah it might seem too early to plan, but at least i have an agenda and i look forward to it.. Life becomes meaningful again..



PLAY with Daoqing on Fri..
Supper at night with Gavin..
and and and the highlight of the week..



Dennis is bringing me to JB to shop!!


And watch movies for just 5 BUCKS!!!



Yeah~ i cant wait!



I just have to cross my fingers and hope they dont suddenly fly my aeroplane last minute. LOL.

Till then, cya!!!