fucking bimbo

Aw..i guess some people are just jealous.

Whether Ive an aim in life or not, its not up for u to judge. I dun need u to teach me anything.

Bimbotic piece of shit. Who are u to say that im an ah lian? Just because of my sko? Let me tell u, im absolutely proud of my own sko. I dun base my self worth on Singapore’s edu, what makes u so sure that after u get into a degree u gonna survive in the industry?
Hm.. let me think, I suggest u do smth ur passionate for, like, being a prostitute? Cmon, FLAUNT what u have got. Freaking big boobs! Let all the guys admire u, this is what u really love, rite? Freaking bimbo, stop trying to be a bitch, because u can never succeed.

Bullshitting all the way in ur blog, ur not even true to ur own blog, just let other people think ur someone whom ur not. Im never an ah lian, just ask my frens who know me well, u dun even noe a shit about me. U think u can noe my character thru the internet? Cmon la, in this way I can see that im smarter then u, regardless of whether ur from JC or whatever shit, only shallow people see what’s on the surface.

Im merely missing my guy, its not up for u to judge that this guy revolves around me or nt. Just because ur “lovey-dovey” with ur guy now doesn’t mean that u guys are nt gonna break?

Ha. Ask ur guy to read my blog la. Let him noe how u two timed my guy before and all those shit u did to the other guys in ur life. I say all these based on facts, WHAT DO U HAVE ON ME? When ur fat ass ex left u, u had been in a worst state than me. Bein dependent doesn’t kill a relationship, but at least my guy trusts me.

Stop deceiving urself. From day one u have been reading my blog and monitoring my life? I dun even noe u. Don’t u feel that its crazy?

“ At least im gonna get a degree..” aw, cmon, what do u want in life? Some motherfuckin papers? Get a life, ur just an empty shell with no passion. Aw, im so scared, let’s see who is gonna climb higher in the social ladder next time.

U wanna “PREECH” to me? Check the dictionary baby, do u need an ite student to teach u how to spell? I will be glad to hear that, just say it in front of my face, dun diss me in ur blog. Tryin to be an agony aunt? GO TO HELL LA!

And one sweet advice for u honey, THINK WITH UR BRAINS, NOT WITH UR BOOBS!

Why?!?

Why did u have to wait till i give up all my hope for u, den tell me that u love me?
How many times, when we are always on the verge of breaking up, but u nv once realise that there is a problem.

Until one day u found out that i might leave u for someone better, den u come and tell me all sorts of things.

I cant seem to trust u anymore. I cant trust that u can never hurt me no more.

After this 1 year and 3 months, im starting to realise, whether is it love or not?

Im jealous of ur other girlfrens- scouts, school, family, camps, YEC or wadeva shit.
I cant change ur interests, ur everything, that would not be u, i know.
Yet can i blame u for havin such commitments?


But im also ur commitment too.
At my weakest moments, when i needed u so badly, ur far away in the forests of Msia.
is it too demanding for a girlfriend to ask for some time, and more love?

Now that i see him, i see a totally different man, i was thinkin, maybe its time for me to go?

Of course if i have to choose, i rather stay with a person i know a year rather than a person i know a week.

Im not that unfaithful type, i dun want him to be the cause of the break up.

BUT to me, it seems like he is the wake up call of a break up.
Im tired of giving u chances.

Yesterday, i cried and seek God for help. Im really torn between 2 choices. And then i think about the verse in the old testament, and i said to God, " Lord, if he is realli the chosen one for me, let him meet me at 10am tmr.

I was realli intending to give u up, until i recieve ur msg today, telling me ur buying breakfast for me today.

God, i noe that u know what is best and what pleases u. But I dun want everything to be the same again. Ive given up too many possiblities for him, is it worth it to give up another?

Haha. Now both PeiYun and Peishi has got boyfriends le.
And maybe its time for me to be single?!?

Have been contemplating bout it for quite some time.
Do i really have a future with him?
Does he really love me?
Does he even care?

Im still not so sure about the answer.
It makes no difference whether he is in camp or not.
If he goes to camp, at least i can lie to myself that he is missing me in the camp.

But then again, will i?
Ive lost faith.
I ask God, should i change things for the better?
Or should i just quit?

Quitters never win, no doubt my heart will hurt, i know it takes time to get over it.
But perhaps i might feel better after i get over this?
And i will never have to cry myself to sleep at nite?

My heart is telling me- no, no, no
My brain is telling me- go, go, go.

Someone please show me the light.


It makes me so mad
that i make u seem so bad
Even though u dun care
if i ever came back
I dont wanna fuss over things,
and i dun wanna cuss u names,
Please God, please God
Please let it rain,
dun let him see the tears,
dun let him see the pain.

Just returned home from work. EXHILARATING!!!!!

Ive been working as a new feel promoter for 2 days. Ystd, i am an angel with yellow wings giving ladies free rides to celebrate International Women's Day. I was having mild asthma attacks on the bus but thank God for being my fortress. Thank God for His grace, without Him i wouldnt be able to make it.

Today i was the only angel, a bit freaky as my costume was the oddest at the Fairprice AMK hub opening. But it was fun, though. Just hope that i will recieve the pay. Plus ive got a free ride home for boss. He wants me to take part in another new project involving the MayDay Concert, the company is one of the sponsors for many artiste like Rain and S.H.E, gaining much publicity. I dun mind working for them as long as the pay is good.

Hehe.. Suddenly it feels so good to be 18. Woo hoo~

Teddy Baby called today. His rashes has gotten worse and he sounded so sick. Very worried about him. I pray to God that he will be fine. Realli miss him a lot.

Its been 2 and a half days since i checked into Independent Rehabilitation Center.

Gawd, i terribly miss him.
Im suffering from mild withdrawal symptoms but im trying to deal it with a positive mindset.

It makes me more clear headed though. Being in a long term relationship, ive become very dependent on him. And my priorities are all messed up.

Everytime he leaves for camp its like clearing all the unhappiness, insecurities and all those shitty things outta our relationship. A good way to detox. =)

Prayed for the earthquake victims in Sumatra.

Everything is God's plan. I know it is easy to say that when im not in the situation but im praying for more salvation. We do not have eternal death but will instead rejoice on the day that we meet our Lord and savior.