School's starting next week, and i hate it.
I absolutely love my hols, i realli dread sko life.

To the people in my sko, im like this very quiet person stuck in this "pretty girl group".
Like just one of em la.

But im not. I am never a quiet and dull person- Only for those people i dont know.
After almost a year, i still dont know the people there la.
The so called friends. The weird teachers.
Wtf.

Im pessimistic?
Yeah, maybe i am.

JUST FUCKING HATE SKO!
I seriously cant wait to get out of this freaking place.
I think in the mean time i'll just show them my fucking attitude or just sit there in the corner like an antisocial la.

I think i should forget bout it first, after all, i still have 1 week plus to be happy.
And then i will have to wait for the next long break.

=(

Happy Birthday my Lord!!!
Sometimes i feel so unworthy.. please forgive me. 



Yesterday had a really meaningful christmas eve.
I was not in a good mood the whole day.
Plus my best buds cancel the Christmas hangout last minute.
The whole shop packed was last min shoppers
(thou its a really small place but there is only 2 sales assistants).

It was real hectic.
I was alone in the shop and i havent even finish attending 2 customers,
then the 3rd customer came.
In the end i still have to call my supervisor back when he was in the toilet doing his business half way. haha.
I was realli realli frustrated.
Then this woman and her daughter came, she seems like those normal customers, she ask me to intro her jazz music, thou i wasnt realli into it, but niwae, i recommended her some cds.

She sampled 3, than finally she want this particular OM music. So i was like, "ok, u buying this for a gift?"
She said yes so i helped her to take out the price tag and everything.

Than the woman asked me for my name and she wrote the GEMs card for me.

I was so surprised!
U know, the little pink card doesnt mean anything to the shoppers, but it meant everything to the service staff ( or maybe its just me.) 
Im this freak who likes to take this kinda card home
and pin it on my bulletin board.
Its realli a motivation to me! WOOHOO!

And then i learnt something valuable: gratitude.

Regardless of how close the person is to you, those little things u do goes a long long way.
Even when u smile at the toilet auntie when she is moping on the toilet floor, u just made her day more enjoyable.

Just by thanking ur parents for doing YOUR laundry, it makes them feel that bringing you up is all worthwhile. (Thou after 10 mins, they will nag at u again.)

So im here to blog and wishing everybody a Merry Christmas!
Thank You just for simply existing in my life.
2006 hasnt been really smooth sailing, but i thank God for every lesson learnt.

And i cant wait for 2007 to start !!!

Isaiah 29:16
... Shall what is formed say to Him who formed it, " He did not make me?"
Can the pot say of the potter, " He knows nothing?"

Let us not forget the true meaning of Christmas.
Its CHRISTmas. Not another excuse for partying.

Its 3.21 am now.

Wad the heck is wrong wit me?
Sleeping wout hearing his voice just dont feel right.



Im so effin dependent on him la.

Say that you stay a little;
don't say bye bye tonight.
Say you'll be mine just a little of bit of love;
Is worth a moment of your time..



Funny how this song reminds me of my baby.
Its been the 2nd day since he went for his camping trip in Msia again.
Realli miss him a lot. Miss his everything.
Keep him in my prayers everyday.
He is like the greatest gift God has ever given me.

Come back soon baby.. i bet you will haf lotsa stories to tell me when ur back!

Peeps, check out my song of the day..
Opeth- Beneath The Mire

What a magnificient piece of metal artwork.
Im amazed.

Had a realli interesting day last nite. Ha.
Though i was workin full shift, Furby came to visit me.
Went to eat dinner wit him then he went to the EZ house to cut his hair.
Blah blah blah..

and then he went back to my shop.
But its difficult not to look at his cute face even when im working.. haha..
Then he glared at me.
So i shouted at him, " DIAO ME FOR WHAT!!!"
Suddenly this ah beng looking customer wit his ah beng-lookin gay friend passed me by.

Den he look at me.
I look the other way. (Feelin so fookin' embarassed.)
And the worst thing is that stupid furby acted like he didnt hear it.
But thank God the ah beng was in good mood. Ha.
Eventually he still smiled at me and ask me to find this dvd for him.

After work Furby went into the toilet.
I was planning to scare him, so i hid behind the wall.
So i waited.. and waited.. and waited.
And finally i saw a shadow coming out of the gents..
Feelin real good with the adrenaline rush and the excitement tt's goin on..

I gave that real scary look and wit a real creepy voice i said, " RARRRRRR~!"

To my horror, it was somebody else.
Damn it.
My whole face turned red.
That guy walked a few steps forward then turned to look at me.
Reaction damn retarded.
By that time i was lol-ing. I apologised and i rushed out of the shop wit Furby ( who saw the whole thing.)
We laughed all the way from Thomson plaza to the bus stop and from the bus stop to the bus.

After that i went to J8 and saw Sharwn and Shan an.
Damn~ they never get sick of this place.
They were lookin for pretty girls.
im like wadeva.
And Sharwn made that vroom vroom joke again.
Damn~ it isnt funny alrdy, TRY SOMETHING NEW, bangla!

hehe.. that's all.. i laughed to sleep last nite thinkin bout the toilet thing.
Wad an interesting day. And its the first time i hear furby laugh so loud. =)

Thou i seldom listen to chinese songs, I like this.
I love the lyrics.
It realli annoys me when some Singaporeans go, " yo yo yo, this ma bling" kinda shit.
I think everybody should be proud of their own heritage.
NEVER be a poser.

I love to be a Chinese. =)

Does being good looking really matter?

Everybody hear phrases and quote phrases.

"Beauty is only skin deep."
"Character is more important."
"Im clever, being handsome doesnt matter."

But ultimately. who doesnt have the desire to be good looking?

Even when we pass by the glass window pane, we "check out" ourselves to see whether we look presentable in that very moment.
And of course, ME, just like any other human being, share the same mindset.
It makes me feel good when someone compliments me. I dont deny this fact.

But the sad thing is, beauty doesnt last forever.
You look like Tyra Banks now, how bout 50 years later?
Who cares about an old hag (though she was Miss Universe 1950?)

Who cares about Britney Spears when there's Hilary Duff?
Who cares about MP3 when you have MP4?

Just like everything we possess in this world- Fame, Money, Material things, and even your spouse: what happens AFTER "till death do us apart?"

I dun crave being the most popular girl in the skool.
Nor i dig the "Wow-all-the-guys-want-my-number" kinda excitement.

BUT
I want to be like Daniel of the babylonians. In the bible, he dwelled in the surrondings of anti-christians, yet he was still able to shine for God.
He was physically healthy, grooms himself well, excel in arts, literature, science, and has an attitude to serve His people.


I want to be successful for Him.

Isaiah 60:1
"Arise! Shine! For your light has come!
And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you!"

Of course, people might say, "So? Im not a Christian, but i want to be successful too."
But i crave to shine for my God.

Same target, different purpose.

God forbid I know I've been a letdown, stupidly reaching for the sky when im lying in a gutter.

Im sick of the pain, sick of the sorrow.
Sick of today, sick of tomorrow.
I climb to the top just to fall to the bottom.
I'm addicted to the misery in my head and I better stop before I end up dead.

I can't be your angel when I'm living like a devil.
I can't be your lover when I'm living like a rebel.
I don't want your pity & I don't want your help.

Don't try & save me go take care of yourself

Just browse thru the main headlines today- father drowns while saving son.

Wonder whether the dominator in my house will do that for me- but i doubt so.

When everything else fails you, God is still faithful.

Waaaitt waiit waaait... u motherfucker..!

I love this song man! Ha. Anybody haf a cure for my addiction of tenacious d?

This has got to be my fav movie of the year!!!
Tenacious D rocks my socks!!!!!
Definitely gonna get this vcd when its out!!!

hm. its 3.36am now, dun even noe wad the fuck im doin rite here.
mom is gonna wake up any moment and she's gonna scream in my ear if she noes im still awake.
Wasnt planning to go sko tmr aniwae.Tmr is my supposedly special day.
but it didnt start well when it hit 12 midnite. We were arguing again.

Sigh. A year ago i went to sleep wit a heart full of hope and blissful-ness.Now when i tried to sleep, my puffy eyes are so tired but my brain just cant shut down.thinkin bout him makes the tears fall again.

Just cant stop.